SHALLOW MELLOW
I’d rather be clothed than to be fed.
Granted, I’m FAT now. I’ve got chipmunk cheeks that’s morphing to beaver’s. TSK at myself.
warped humanity
Seriously am I some sort of a bitch magnet?! Why do bitches follow me everywhere I go? Why do I even hafta cross paths with them in the first place?! Like of all people! I’m cursed, aren’t I?! Bitches whom I’ve never spoken a word to before… Bitches whom I’ve stayed out of their lives for yearssss just hafta come knocking on my door. What do all you motherfuckers want from me?!?!?!?! Don’t you understand what’s live and let live and get the fking obvious hint that I want you completely out of my life, absolutely no association or acquaintanceship in any motherfucking ways?!?!?!? Do you mofos enjoy drama and bitch fits so much that you hafta provoke me?! Go pick a fight elsewhere, I ain’t no pushover. And fuckerous “friends” i have, quit acting like you’re able to read me like a book! Can’t you even detect disdain in my expression/tone/speech whenever we hang out?! Let’s just face it, we’re all making use of one another. I may be a lousy friend, a bitch, whatever you say, but honestly I think you’re worst yet you’re still living in your own bubble, so oblivious and clueless, acting like you’re some sort of saint and indirectly put me down to make me feel like shit. Spare me your hypocrisy and stop talking to me. It makes me so sick in the stomach each time I hear you speak. I had enough of being nice to people because you people only know how to take me for granted. Fuck y’all. I don’t give a flying fuck if you sink like a titanic or get trampled all over or die a tragic death. DON’T MAKE YOUR PROBLEM MY PROBLEM. I’m not your sympathetic sidekick!!!!!!! FUCK OFF. Really, just F O.
“ Happiness is being able to do what you love with the people you love but without money, time and any constraints.
on a completely random note, my snoopy baby smells like vanilla. so soft and fluffy and vanilla-ish. i wouldn’t be able to resist taking a bite if not for the fur. love my snoopy soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much !!!!
Toely diggin this song currently. Makes me harpeeee. Someone made a “passing remark” on how I’m a living irony because I “despise” scene kids yet I dig indie tunes. Excuse me, whoever said indie = scene ?! More often than not, but there’re still seldom rare exceptionals! Let’s not make an ass out of you and me. Haha… Ohh and I love flood jeans/pants too because that’s how I roll! HAHAHAHA
lost my wits
fuckkkkk this is seriously mind-fucking. for once after so many bloody years i actually do NOT know what i really want!! hate what i’m doing right now. seriously God’s punishing me for being a backslider (technically, not spiritually!). i try fuckerously hard to be NAISE to ppl (ok co-workers to be precise. i’m generally nice to strangers wahaha) but it’s fuckingcheebye killing me luhh! all cheebyebors dislike me or they can’t click with me?! Oh Lord, why did you put all these difficult charbors in my path?!?! WHYYYYYYYYYYYYY??????? yesssss i enjoy and yearn for female companionship very much but not these sort of diverse varieties lah!!!!! (i’d rather meet those fairfield bitches all over again at least all sama sama predictable one kind only.) now they prolly think i’m acting all too cool for them or the other way round. and it’s not like i can completely avoid them as of now! somehow they’ve managed to make cut-throat corporate culture seems like a safe haven retreat and i’m missing it alr. i need, should and ought to seriously reconsider my blueprint for the future, bleak’s becoming an understatement. i shall give myself one more week in order to weigh my pros and cons rationally and sensibly and deliberate my final decision!! I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT CONTINUE TO BE A QUITTER AND A PROCRASTINATOR. GOTTA PERSERVERE AND FIGHT MY OWN BATTLES!!!! also, i desperately need to get my life all sorted out! early accidental death clearly doesn’t occur easily and conveniently to ppl who want to die young. and i can’t believe i’ve been daydreaming about winning the toto (approx 2mil jackpot, no?) and planning how to utilize the money. call me ah siao. everyone knows the probability’s like 1 in 8145060… but here’s the madness, i don’t even know how does toto works or how to place bets. hahahahaha and i’ve never placed a single bet with spore pools, so how to win? negative probability. dreading next week already. self-esteem hit an all-time low. useless, hopeless, clueless, faithless, friendless, motherless, ahmaless. stupid astrology cusp signs. why can’t i be a true blue gemini then i’ll have happy thoughts like forever. OMG i’ve just enlightened myself! God’s making my life so unbearable because i believe in horoscopes! RIGHT NOT fellow christians? Astrology’s an abomination to God and i’m detestable before God because i partake in such bullshit! See Holy Father, i just said astrology’s bullshit. So yea, imma be a true follower of Christ and forsake all those bullshit. Please bestow me with a fulfilling and smooth-sailing life ahead. Pleaseeeeeeeeeee. Promise to stop reading zodiac tweets! Please bless me everyday throughout my living years. Please do not let anything happen beyond my anticipation and control and awareness… (Note: Perfectly fine with accidental deaths… not too painful though.) I can really do without all these trials and tribulations and I can guarantee you my faith in you will never ever waver just like my love for snoopy baby. I love you very much the almighty God, from the deepest core of my heart <3 :):) aight goodnight.
imma burst your bubble
Solution for disappointment: Less hope/expectation and expel any related thoughts.
reflection fail
I’m not convinced when I see a change in someone. As in personality/character wise. Did it not occur to you that perhaps you were wrong all along, that the person whom you thought you knew isn’t exactly what you’d expected him/her to be. Your initial perception could be just a facade portrayed by the “changed” person, and there’s more to him/her than meets the eye. What you see isn’t quite what you get and only time will tell. Rather disappointing, ain’t it? Be disappointed, look forward and move on. They probably ain’t worth your time trying to know them inside out. Ironically, these words are coming from me because there’s only so much disappointment I can take. Sigh… I am so complex that I don’t think anyone will ever truly get me. I don’t even know why I am blaming myself for this. Complexity just proven. I might need a shrink (literally and non-literally) after all.
